Today I’m thankful for the joys of home. Having a quiet home, where two people love and respect one another takes a lot of work. It’s far easier to just be selfish and self focused, but the results of working at your marriage are much better. I’m thankful that the Lord has never left me to my own ends but gently, firmly and consistently battles my sin. So, as we work around our first fall fire, I’m thankful for my home.
Today, November 1st, is the day I change my writing.
Change has been brewing in my heart and mind. Explaining the change will encourage some of you, puzzle others, and mark me as crazy for a few of you – tis life and life where faith is involved. As a Christian, I believe that Christ is constantly working to sanctify me and make me more like Him. He asks me to live a life of sacrifice for His sake just like He did for me. How can I do anything other than that??
In the process of that sanctification, Christ challenges us and pushes us out of our comfort zones. He seeks to make us holy, not necessarily happy. (Assuming you understand happiness and joy to be two totally different things.) Recently, I have been challenged and convicted about my writing. I don’t believe anything that I’m writing is wrong, but I have begun to wonder if it the best use of my gift. This has been a very painful thought process, and a very long one. I love my urban fantasy/warrior stories. I love them. They are a deep part of me. They resonate with me. I cherish them. But my local church family and my husband aren’t being served by them. I’ve been able to use them as a bridge to a few people in our church and I have forced them on others with threats of friendships ending, but they aren’t serving my body as a whole. If I love Christ, than I’m to love my brothers and sisters, and if I say I love you, than I should seek to encourage and edify you with the gifts I’ve been given.
About a year ago, my husband was provided with the opportunity to start teaching in our Church. This is where his heart is, this is where he wants to go as the Lord provides. As his wife, it’s my goal in life to help him in everything that I do. I want to help him achieve his dreams and I want to grow and mature alongside him, not away from him. I want to be the old couple who still enjoys each other. That takes sacrifice. (And before anyone gets all feminist on me about him sacrificing for me, remember, this is me talking about me, not him, and he has sacrificed for me. He does every day. This is not an idea he foisted on me. He gave me his opinion, of course, but he left me alone to sort things out in my own head, and between me and God. There was no dictatorial edict from on high, but a loving friend at my side in the journey of life.) Needless to say, my particular brand of urban fantasy doesn’t feature in his Biblical Studies….ever. So as he grows and changes, I want – more than I want to be published, and more than I want to share these stories – to grow with him.
What does this all mean??? I’m not sure yet. LOL. I’m making a new blog where I can write things that will be more encouraging and edifying for my church. I’m thinking about taking all the rumbling tumbling stories inside me and writing children’s books. I have lots of nieces and nephews and it would be nice to write stories for them. I think there is a deplorable lack of decent, fun, and wholesome stories with strong life lessons offered to the youth of our day. If we want them to stop acting entitled along with all their other problems, giving them more books like Perks of Being a Wallflower won’t help. (I’m not saying that’s the problem entirely, I’m just saying stuff like that doesn’t fix anything.) There are lots of thoughts stuffed in my head and I feel a bit crowded. I have lots of decisions to make. What I can tell you with all certainty is that I will use my gift to encourage and edify my church. I will find new ways to express the concept of the Undeserved Rescue which sets my heart and mind on fire.
This new blog will include a Writing Journal. I’ll review Books, Movies and Music, and I’ll have Quotes. Since these were the articles I got the most views and comments on in my previous blog, I thought I should keep them. I will also be sharing articles about my own Christian Journey, things that have happened in my life, Sunday Thoughts, and other random things. Once again, my main goal is to use my gift to edify, serve, and encourage my church.
If you want to follow this new blog, you now know what my focus is. I’d love to have you along for the ride, but I understand that some of you may find this offensive, uninteresting, and choose not to follow me as I change focus. I understand. For those of you who are interested, hit the follow button up there on your right, or enter your email address!
Thanks for reading the old blog, commenting, and encouraging me for the last two years! It’s been awesome! And thank you to all the new followers. I look forward to sharing with you!